Monday, October 19, 2009

A necessary cocooning


I had hoped that I wouldn't need to write this post. But here it is: I will be taking an extended hiatus from blogging.

My husband was diagnosed with cancer in July. The tumor in his femur was most likely caused by the radiation he received for his last cancer fifteen years ago.

When our lives first spun into this crazy orbit, we held onto a few things that hadn't changed,
that we could control. Participating in blogosphere was one of those things for me. Here, I was not just someone whose life was affected by cancer. Here, I've continued to be an aspiring author and book lover. Here, I've stayed sane.

But
I no longer have the energy to maintain my blog. So much of what's going on in my mind and emotions is pulling me toward somewhere else; somewhere still and private. I need to cocoon myself.

Over the next few months I won't be able to go along with your journeys and listen to your thoughts or discuss issues on writing and publishing. I will miss you and I wish you writing and living that makes you proud.

16 comments:

MG Higgins said...

Yat-Yee, I am so sorry. Tears are dripping on my keyboard. I don't know if there's anything I can possibly do to help, but please email me if you ever want to chat. My heart goes out to you and your husband and your family.

Davin Malasarn said...

Yat-Yee, Please take care. I see you have a lot you need to prioritize right now. I hope you'll keep in touch with us at least a little by email or blogging, or however you want to do it.

Tricia J. O'Brien said...

Oh, Yat-Yee, my heart aches. I am a cancer survivor (as people call it) and I know whereof you speak. It is consuming in so many ways, and you must do what feels right and what you can handle. We will miss you, and, of course, please visit if you are in the mood or feel free to e-mail me, if you like. sleuthwood@yahoo.com

T. Anne said...

Good luck with your writing! Looking forward to when you come back.

Bish Denham said...

I am sending healing, calming thoughts your way. Breathe in, breathe out. There are more important things to do, more important places to be. Whenever you return, we will be here.

Annie Louden said...

I am so sorry to hear about your husband! I hope he can recover soon.
Please take care however you can. I'll miss your posts and will be thinking of you.

storyqueen said...

Yat-Yee, there is always a place for you here in the blogosphere that you can escape to if you need to. We will be here.

Wishing you the best. My heart aches for you.

Shelley

Karen Amanda Hooper said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband, and family. We're here if you need us.

Yat-Yee said...

I don't cry easily these days, but I have to say your comments brought me tears. Thank you for sending me your good wishes and support. I accept them with humility and gratitude.

beth said...

I'm adding my thoughts and prayers, as well. God bless you all!

Lady Glamis said...

Yat-Yee, I'm so sorry to hear this. My dad has been diagnosed with cancer twice. It's such a hard thing to bear. If you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to email me for anything (ladyglamis@gmail.com). I understand how blogging can take up a lot of time and energy. We are all still here for you exactly when you need it. *HUGS*

I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Nandini said...

Yat-Yee,

I have really admired your courage in the last few months, knowing what you must be going through, while reading your inspiring and thoughtful posts about writing.

I wish you strength, hope, fortitude, and the best possible outcome of Edwin's ongoing treatment.

I hope you don't mind if I post a line on Mondays anyway, while you're away. It's my way of keeping you in my thoughts and saying a prayer for his recovery.

scott g.f.bailey said...

Yat-Yee, I'm very sorry to hear this news. I'll think about you and miss you while you're away.

Kelly H-Y said...

Oh ... I am so, so very sorry. Please take care of yourself ... and blessings to you and your family. So scary that they think it was caused by the radiation. My mom is currently dealing with metastatic breast cancer, and received radiation on the breast cancer, and now again on one of the bones affected by the recurrence. Frightening that the thing that is supposed to make the cancer go away, can potentially cause it as well. I will be thinking of you, and will say a prayer for you and your family.

Nandini said...

I've been bookmarking lines on Mondays and thinking of you. Hope all is well.

Cheryl Reif said...

Oh, Yat-Yee, I've been off in my own world and just came back to re-read posts and discovered your news. My heart aches for you and your family. You're wise to conserve your energy for those closest to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I'm glad to see at least a few posts, still, if they mean you can step out of real life occasionally and enjoy your online world. Did I mention thoughts and prayers? And feel free to email me, too, if there's anything I can do. I can write you a gaggle of fantastical anti-cancer sprites, if you like. I write fantasy, after all :) . Take care and cocoon as much as you need. Much love-CR